simply complicated

okay my day yesterday wasnt all that exciting x]
uhhh im just glad i got to talk to some people
they were very...informative haha :P
well they kept making FACES the whole time
lol but i do it to them too so yeahh :D
well i found out some interesting news the night before ;D
so that pretty much filled my thoughts the whole day.
hahaha well yeahh i just wonder what will happen,
cuz this is the first time ive been in this situation
i dont know whether to be happy or worried?
haha im overanalyzing things that shouldnt
be complicated at all x]
well im trying not to tell like EVERYONE i know
because i dont want to end up like a certain someone :/
not cool at all...

well, idk whose gonna come clean first...and what will happen then
but im an open door, and i prefer other people to make the first move...

idk, before my whole life seemed so repetitive and just boring.
and all of a sudden, so many things are happening at the same time?
huh, idk what i would prefer, nothing happening in my life, or SO MANY things happening
at the same time...well i guess we cant get everything we wish for
well i guess i dont want to go back to that boring stage because
seriously, NOTHING exciting happened to me at ALL..and i dreaded that
so i guess my way of thinking right now
is that the grass is always greener on the other side of the fence...

haha i guess im really happy with whats going on(:
its just the fear of losing everything keeps getting in the way
T.T