simply complicated

i am aching to tell someone
but am so afraid that they'll hurt me
when i finally come close
its as if they dont want to listen...theyre too caught up
in their own lives and i dont want to interfere.
well, i guess its better this way
il endure everything and look on hoping that theres light at the end of this tunnel
but right now its pitch black.

the future's a blur right now.
anything can happen,
a life can turn around completely in half a second
i dont know what to do anymore.
people say theyre here for me
but when i need them most
i cant find anyone.
but its okay.
they all just pity me, and i hate it
i dont need that.
i just need someone to listen...
and understand.

nothing really good has happened to me for the longest time :/
idk what will happen if i dont find what im longing for soon.
but how can i find it
if i dont even know what it is?

i thought things were going to be better.
then this happened.
ugh, how can people be so stupid?!
now ive really lost faith in people...

well, theres nothing i can do
but just act like nothing happened...
put a smile on my face, for others sake.
and hope for the best.