havent posted a blog in a whilee. ive been pretty busy this summer
with volunteer stuff, babysitting, school, and hanging out, mostly with the fam.
ahahha oh well, at least i dont spend the whole day at the computer anymore lol.
IM SO HAPPY "HYPERVENTILATING" for someone who told me something good happened to them ;) bahhahahaha omg, seriously i started screaming when you told me <33 FINALLY!
summer school
its alright i guess. SOOO boring, but i have some people to help with thatt :)
bahahha i kinda feel bad because i always drag ariana to the lunch line so i can see someone. HEHE.
class is filled with weirdos. ugh. and my FRIENDS are no help at all -___- laughing at me... whenever some people..yeahh >:[
the work is so easy i can finish in like a minute.
i dyed my hair :O
the first time in my lifee. light brown highlights.
i guess it turned out okayy. its something different.
vickyy its your turn! hehe DYE YOUR HAIR(:
and i DONT act like a blonde. hehe
oxford?
still undecided, but it seems like, im coming back next yearr :]
the summer homework really isnt helping me with wanting to come back,
but ehhh.
my friends better be worth it! HAHA of course you guys are<3 i guess..
bahahha.
yesterday i spent 3 1/2 hours sitting at the doctors office because my moms stomach was hurting. we were supposed to watch proposal, but that didnt work out. we ate in-n-out instead :D heheh
well, i still need to hang out with a lot people this summer.
so LETS MAKE PLANS :D
im so freaking scared.
but excited just the same.
aahh i dont know what to do with myselff
the mind is a whirlwind.
;aldksjf! is the best way i can explain
my thoughts.
i dont think im playing mario anymore.
im pretty sure ill lose.
gah i want rainy days to come ;]
lorros should ask tigres something already!
my situation should confess!
people should stop being pissed at me for thinking about leaving oxford. i mean, what good will it do? its not going to influence my decision...
i hope the last 2 days of school will wrap up certain things that have been going on this year. we cant leave certain "things" unfinished.
im really gonna miss the people who are leaving oxford for sure<3
hah i wonder when hogan will put up the choir classess cause id prefer to be in advanced girls..
found out today we're not getting a house, but im moving out of this roach/flea/ant/spider-infested apartment! ;]
finally getting an allowance to save up for an ipod. itll take 7 1/2 months, but thats okayyy :D
without music, i would die.
today was fun. who knew baby showers could make me sweat. lool!
i wonder who'll win the bet between erin and me. only summer will tell <3
i'm trying to be ready for whatever the future throws me. it's beyond my control, so why fret?
i seriously wish i could read people's minds.
ughh it get so annoying when people start conversations about a few certain someones, assuming that i would care, because of what happened before.
just let me do what i want. its my life and none of it is for your amusement.
“Confusion is a word we have invented for an order which is not yet understood”
this is so cuteee. i wonder if its true. LOL
Why do boys fall in love with girls?
(This was written by a guy)
it’s so sweet!
1. They will always smell good even if it’s just shampoo.
2. The way their heads always find the right spot on our
shoulder.
3. How cute they look when they sleep.
4. The ease in which they fit into our arms.
5. The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right
in the world.
6. How cute they are when they eat.
7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end it makes it all worth while.
8. Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside.
9. The way they look good no matter what they wear.
10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she’s the most beautiful girl on this earth.
11. How cute they are when they argue.
12. The way her hand always finds yours.
13. The way they smile.
14. The way you feel when you see their name on the your cell after you just had a big fight.
15. The way she says “lets not fight anymore” - even though you
know that an hour later....
16. The way that they kiss after you have had a fight.
17. The way they kiss you when you say “I love you”.
18. Actually...Just the way they kiss you…
19. The way they fall into your arms when they cry.
20. Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly.
21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt. * i think every girl is guilty of this
22. Then the way they apologize when it does hurt (even though we don’t admit it).
23. The way they say “I miss you”.
24. The way you miss them.
25. The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn’t hurt her anymore...Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or
know that you would die without them it matters not. Because once in
your life, whatever they were to the world they become everything to
you. When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their
souls and you say a million things without trace of a sound, you know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart. We love them for a million reasons, no paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart.
A feeling. Only felt.
i'm so over it.
you're just unbelievably stupid.
everything was a waste of time and energy,
one of the few things in my life that i regret.
oh well, it's your loss :]
BTW, don't talk to me again.
soo, havent posted in a while
i thought i should now.
nothing's going on, i promise you.
i hate it whem people think
i like them, when in all seriousness i dont like anybody right now.
cant you be friends with someone of the opposite sex
and still play around and joke without people thinking there's something going on?
& i think i made a mistake by telling him...
cuz i think he's the type of person to avoid. i dont want things to be awkward
because he's a really good friend. i thought he'd react differently...
but whatever. i don't care about what people think, but i hate misunderstandings.
i think you should get a life. you were the worst part of my day.
omg erin, please tell me when your two month long denial phase ends
so i can talk to you without having to explain the SAME exact things
over and over againn?? hahaaa we have crazy fun times in cluster though :]
YOUR FACE!!!! lmfao.
and alina, at least youre not AS in denial as erin, but STILLLL
it wouldnt kill you to say something >:D
please don't come back into my life. ive tried my hardest to forget about you,
not telling anyone because i didnt want to talk about it. ive survived this long,
don't ruin it for me. i don't even consider you as anything anymore...so stop talking to me.
so terrified, everyday, that i'll get a phone call telling me the news. it's only a matter of time and im not ready yet. i would never be, because nothing can possibly prepare me.
i hate this part.
"the hardest part of this
is leaving you"
something my "therapist" said during a lunch walk
got me thinking
"one day, you'll eventually ________________"
will i really?
i hope nott.
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Is the weather changing again?
just when i was getting used to the rain
it becomes somewhat sunny again.
will the rain come back? The sun is too bright.
i dont like it, but for some odd reason it's a bit comforting...
makes me feel that im actually worth something, that the sun comes out for me
-________-;
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She came home! :D Thank GOD. I got to see her again, and we ate cake<3
but i still cant fathom the fact that it's just a matter of time...for both of them.
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HE IS SO STUPID. doesnt he know that what theyre planning to do is outrageous?
dont they know the complications that WILL follow? What if he ends up wasting it?
what if its all a mistake...im the one whose gonna have to pull him out. :/
"You are what you are."
Life is an Adventure ... Dare it
Life is a Beauty ... Praise it
Life is a Challenge ... Meet it
Life is a Duty ... Perform it
Life is a Love ... Enjoy it
Life is a Tragedy ... Face it
Life is a Struggle ... Fight it
Life is a Promise ... Fulfill it
Life is a Game ... Play it
Life is a Gift ... Accept it
Life is a Journey ... Complete it
Life is a Mystery ... Unfold it
Life is a Goal ... Achieve it
Life is an Opportunity ... Take it
Life is a Puzzle ... Solve it
Life is a Song ... Sing it
Life is a Sorrow ... Overcome it
Life is a Spirit ... Realize it.
