simply complicated

:)

WHAT HAPPENED?
:(

i just dont know anymore.
trust me, im not worth it.
wish i was, though.
but shes so much better[:

wow. havent blogged in a while.

had an interesting and emotional past few weeks.
so many thoughts running through my head.

today someone said something to me, that was COMPLETELY wrong.
they just assumed, and were so sure about it. if they only knew.
then again, why would i want them to? that just means im doing my job.
but it still frustrated me. YOU DONT KNOW ME.
and your not the only one going through "a lot".

;alkdjf;alkdf!
this is blowing everything out of proportion.
if you REALLYY look at it, everythings simple.
the next moment you look: more complications than ever before. i hate my wandering imagination.

next weeeek.
so much going on..you owe us >:D

I may tell you lots of things, but theres still a whole lot you dont know.
so again, dont assume.

GUHHHH
my my my(;
what an intriguing topic.

you know what?
im sorry you had me.
im sorry im a part of your life, because all you ever say is that i am a burden.
maybe i should cease to be so.
maybe you should do what you threaten to me every day.
you'll never understand.

PINOY FEAR FACTOR.
sooo much worse than US.
its like, pure torture. but i think its cool(:
REPRESENT lol

you know what i find so weird? multiple conversations i had with completely different people were about the same exact topics. and they said the exact same things. i was like, wow. DEJA VU.

"il never get over you getting over me"
^^^from a surprising conversation i had. you know who u are.
<3

so tired of EVERYTHING
the drama
restrictions
PEOPLE
ugh. its like, whats happening to everything?
i dont even care anymore.
because with whatever we put much thought into
it turns out we simply wasted our time. SO MUCH OF IT
so now, that is my new resolution: to not worry.
(:

high school dramatizes everything.
even the smallest details can become huge scandals, especially in oxford.
ONE word a person says can determine their reputation for the rest of their high school career.
its pure evil.

i now officially want to become a psychologist and learn more about
the simply complicated minds of people. a very interesting subject.
the career allows you to 1)make bank[; and 2)apply the lessons you learn at work to life and the people around you.
so its like hitting two birds with one stone.

i seriously hate how my mind works. one moment im convinced on something, and the next im totally against it. the pattern continues. its so frustratingg):
i guess its true that the filtering and thought processes for girls are more developed than that of guys. learned that today from a very interesting conversation with a very interesting substitute teacher :D

i think im on a music craze right now. dont know what i would do without it. its the only way i can truly feel like myself. guuhh im so bad with words, but somehow theres always a song that explains exactly how i feel<3

OH and to that 1 person [i think you know who you are]look at #15 on my playlist.
you should understand the newfound value of this song :P

fun!-- partay
awkwarddd-- person.
boring-- cuz of no internet/phone :/
full :O-- of delicious foood<3
witchy D:<-- PERSON!
scaryy-- STALKER
repetitive-- phone calls
falling-- trashbags 8P
weird-- friends ;]
cutee-- mr.collegeboy!<---thats right ;D
crazy-- weekend<3
tired-- me.

is wrong.
with.
you.

how different things would be
if i was just..open about everything.
if i just didnt keep anything
if i just told people about everything
would i have the same friends?
would people think of me the same way?

if i did, id just probably be considered as emo.
i dont want that.
not that i care what people think, but when someone is depressed all the time
after a certain point not many people would want to hang around with them anymore.
idk, i guess i like the way people are around me.
i like helping others with their problems
and worry about mine on my own.

i like being fairly positive most of the time though
have more fun that way
;]

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falling trashbags, confrontations, sense of humors, and certain hotlines with people repeating things like a MILLION times.
made up an interesting day yesterday

confrontations arent necessarily over yet.
working on that.

family partay todayy(: jollibees
gtg. write more lateeeer ;D

wow. if you think i put your problems beneath me, you are SO wrong.
in reality its the exact opposite. i dont think i am better than you in ANY way[in fact, im way worse] but im just trying to help.

wow seriously?
im getting so sick and tired of people being so depressed. i get all worried, and when i find out what the actual problem is, most times its not even that bad. im not one to judge, but still.
i mean, im not mad at anyone specifically or anything, but as a whole, its starting to get to me. i dont know, i guess i just want them to see things in a different light because what they are saying at times does not even make sense. yes, we ALL have problems, and the purpose of blogs are so that we can vent, but sometimes it gets a bit too much...when ALL the time its just depressing words. i mean, who would want to read something like that EVERY time? YES i want to know how everyone feels, but no offense, its just getting old.

im actually really happy right now. because i have a chance to prove myself and i KNOW im not going to let myself mess up like before.

bahahah i loved today's therapy session<3unspeakables, stalkers, and whatnot[first time ive used that word...?] lol. youre such a loser. btw, im still very very confuzzledd and undecided.

OMFG. SO MUCH DRAMA. JFDFOUEPROUFOUD. im not even kidding.

i miss youu a lot :( just had to say that lol. even though no one really knows<3

OH SHOOT i forgot to call you today :O DANGIT lol i just remembered right now
w/e il do it tomorrow xD

isnt it so weird that i finished all my homework at 5?! i got home like at 4:40
hehehhee then i slept.
:D