YouthForChrist retreat...indescribable.
life-changing.
unexpected.
amazing.
i don't even know where to start. i came into that camp knowing only one person,
and by the end of two days, i had experienced so many laughs, highs, lows, tears, and made friendships that i am certain will last a very long time. i found out i can relate with these people more than i ever thought possible. they are absolutely hilarious, fun, talented, smart, and just plain good-hearted. the enviornment was warm and welcoming. i felt like i belonged. all of us were one, especially while singing. We all cried together, laughed together, sang together, worshipped God together.
I have never gotten so close to people in a span of two days, it's unbelievable.
God brings people together in incredible ways.
there is more to life than school and boys. MUCH more. i just wish more people realized that.
single most amazing experience in my life.
i learned so much. to not be ashamed. to love. to know i am never alone. to know i am forgiven. i received the holy spirit, and the feeling was amazing. my body was shaking, as my body was cleansed. i am a new person, with a clean slate. and i have a new family now, with amazing people <3 YOUTH FOR CHRIST.
this type of high totallyy beats out anything drugs, alcohol, or cutting can do. it's exactly what i needed in my life.
i don't think i have really lived until this weekend.
it's so difficult to find the right words to write on here, because the experience was just...wow.
it was so emotional to the point that i almost ran out of tears. and not because i was sad...the complete opposite, actually (:
"one way Jesus, You're the only one that I could live for"
You were the one that made me feel firsthand how to love.
Our relationship was one that lasted, no matter what happened.
We stayed friends, a million miles apart.
You were my first crush.
You were my first "puppy love" dare i say it.
You were my best friend then, and still remain to be one of the closest people to me today.
You lived there. i lived here. we were still us, as if nothing had changed.
We grew up, changed, but still kept in touch. Because you're just so amazing.
You let me see life in such a beautiful way. You made me better.
So talented.
So kind-hearted.
So loving.
So AMAZING.
Our promise...I will never ever forget. God knows I will still keep it.
Although you may not be here in person to experience it with me,
you'll be in my heart, and that is enough <3
Bestprend, I never anticipated this, and neither did you, I'm sure..
I'm sad i did not have the chance to spend more time with you
but neither bitterness or regret fill my body. Instead it is love. This is God's plan. You're in a much better place.
I will always miss you.
i love you.
see you again someday.
say hi to Lolo for me up there in Heaven.
R.I.P. JULIUS <333
sing for me again someday ;]
"dancin' in the moonlight. everybody's feeling warm and bright, it's such a fine and natural sight"
